Another Year Older…

It’s a funny thing birthday’s, for me they are more a time of reflection on the past year than New Years. A time to see how far you have come or not.

If I were being totally honest with myself, and you, I was hoping to be further ahead than I am. There were visions of a new home, career and more adventures. I keep telling myself it’s okay that I have not got to where I wanted to be and it will all work out but is this me placating myself, allowing mediocrity when I should be aiming for more?

This may sound harsh but, recently I have noticed I have been slipping into bad habits. They include spending too much time on my phone, letting the house get messy, not getting out more and doing what I enjoy. It has happened slowly and it’s only in this past week that I have noticed how much I have neglected the things that bring me joy like writing and allowed myself to work silly amounts of overtime instead. These new bad habits are not going to help me get to where I want to be and are not who I want to be.

It’s so easy to fall into these patters especially when work is stressful and you just want to switch off. It’s also far from easy to change however sometimes we have to be harder, not harsher, on ourselves and be brutally honest and ask ourselves, why have I not got to where I want to be and what positive steps need to be taken to get there. Financially a house may still be out of reach over the next year but spending less time on my phone isn’t, replacing unpaid overtime with a forgotten hobby is easily achievable as is making time to plan some weekend adventures.

What I am trying to say and what I will be taking into my 31st year is don’t let life get in the way of life goals!