My family and partner would disagree with that statement but it’s true. It wasn’t intentional and I had no clue it was going to happen but in the run up to Christmas my mental health took a downturn.
Christmas is my favourite holiday, I love the atmosphere, the shopping, wrapping the presents and time spent with family and friends but this year was a different story. Over the past year I have unintentionally allowed things to build up and ignored my health, in particular my mental health. Something triggered me in the run up to the festive period and from that moment and for the whole Christmas period I could not function. I was there but I could barely speak or eat and would sleep but was never rested.
It was a scary, confusing and surreal couple of weeks. The thing that took the most courage, and I am proud of, is reaching out to friends and family for help. It may have dampened Christmas and worried those close to me but it also allowed me to get help and support that I need.
I could spend 2023 making multiple New Year resolutions but I’m not going to put unnecessary pressure on myself. Instead I am going to spend 2023 just focusing on me and being a bit selfish so that Christmas 2023 will be a different affair.
A tough lesson I have learnt is if you’re struggling don’t struggle alone, reach out. Don’t spend days, weeks, months or years allowing feelings and problems to snowball.
Attempting To Wander 
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